Today is the penultimate class day of my master’s degree. Everyone says this, but I honestly didn’t think this day would ever arrive. Two years ago, it seemed as if this degree was going to be the hardest thing that I was ever going to do. Loss of friendships and ended relationships included, these two years have been the worst two years of my life. Luckily, I am walking away from this, for the most part, unscathed.
I dislike that my graduate experience is going to be marred by boy trouble. Without it, these past two years definitely would not have been as terrible. God is really putting me through a test to try and find the right person; first, the end of a terrible. 3 year relationship, then being used as a doormat, and then finally a short relationship with a really fantastic guy.
I learned a little something about myself from each relationship. By the last relationship, I finally learned that I don’t have to change myself for anyone and that someone will be attracted to me for who I am. I doubt you are reading this, but you know who you are. You liked me for me and for the first time, I didn’t have to compromise myself. You probably don’t realize what you’ve done and I just want to say thank you. You are truly a great person and I pray everyday that the Lord continues to bless you.
I’ve finally decided what I want to do with my life. I’ve gone back and forth trying to decide what I want to do with music. I love music so much and want to sing everything. I was going to go the church music route and study at Concordia Chicago in the fall, but I realized that I would miss performing. So, I decided that I will take the year off and work on repertoire. While at home, I will teach lessons and do some substitute teaching. During that time, I plan to apply for DMA programs. That’s right, folks…Martha plans on getting her doctorate. So far, the schools that I will be looking into are: the University of Michigan, University of Illinois, Indiana University, and Northwestern University. If I decided to apply to an early music performance program, then I will also add Yale to the list.
I’m not done singing and I want to perform for as long as I am able to. Apart from being in church, nothing else makes me happier than being on stage. I thank God every day for this talent that He has given me and I can’t wait to start this next journey in my life!
Oh and, Higher Things, if you ever need someone to sing, you know who to call!